i didnt qualify for finals.
miss sara went "sshhhit. but never mind. we did our best already".
i actually cried in front of her. when i practiced for awhile in studio 6, i played like shit. and my confidence just totally dropped. my dreams were already known to be shattering in the next few minutes. and well, it did.
i totally screwed.
the simplest word to describe everything and anything that happened.
screwed. just screwed.



mr b/
thank you very much for all the support you showed. you made me realize so many things that sometimes i end up crying over realizing them when they are right in front of my eyes, and yet i dont realize them. like being the only malay competitor there. it's a great honour. and to compare myself with students who are taught organ since very young, is never wise of me. it only pulls my self-confidence level down. and to make me realize those small little things that could just make me smile, has already made me happy. because you taught me to see and find the light when darkness happens.

girl/
you're always the strong one i see in my eyes. just remember. whenever you think that everyone seems to be against you, i'll be here to go against them. you make me smile everytime i see you. and to see you in such a situation like this makes me feel even more hurt. hey! i've gone through one painful situation. i failed to succeed in such an area that i love most. but im moving on(: and we'll both focus on one thing at a time, and not stress ourselves too much. ignore them(:

sunflower/
i miss talking to you ): i've been wanting to telling you stuffs that matter. i wanna share my happiness. but everytime i want to talk, something will happen. and i cant talk. i feel apart from you. but i really need to talk to you. about so many things. yes, you may not have enough time. but it really is important. ):

juliet/
we shall go through days with no more tears. you shall guide me, and i'll guide you along as well. the past shall remain as it is. and we shall move on. we will, together. (:


lessons i learnt from my participation in the competition shall be brought along with me, and make me stronger. (: